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Ito kami dati..ito ang mga taong naging kasa-kasama ko sa mundong ginagalawan ko. Kung iisipin, madami na rin ako nakasama. Halos naging saksi ako sa lahat ng mga pagbabago, sa mga taong umalis, sa mga taong dumating, at sa mga tao na hanggang ngayon, ay kasama ko pa rin. Masarap balikan ang nakaraan. Ngunit kasama nito, ang pagharap sa kinabukasan na walang kasiguraduhan. Ito kami dati..ano na kami ngayon? You fingertips against my skin You sang me spanish lullabies I never want to see you unhappy Goodbye, my almost lover We walked along a crowded street And when you left you kissed my lips I never want to see you unhappy Goodbye, my almost lover I cannot go to the ocean Goodbye, my almost lover This is something i read and i can relate to….
Pseudo-relationships.
Pseudo-boyfriends.
Pseudo-girlfriends.
Flings.
Almost like a relationship, but not quite.
It is a phase where the persons involved are more than friends, but not quite
lovers.
Puwedeng may verbal agreement, puwedeng wala.
One or both of you may have admitted your feelings, possible ding hindi.
You just let your gestures do the talking for you.
Walang pormal na ligawan na nangyari.
Hindi kayo mag-dyowa.
Pero sa kilos niyo, sa mga sinasabi niyo, parang kayo, pero hindi.
This kind of "relationship" can happen at different stages for
different reasons.
It can happen after a break-up.
You still love each other, and you want to be with each other but you broke up
for a reason.
And for reasons that you alone know, ayaw niyo na muna magkabalikan.
It can also happen before a relationship, iyong pareho
kayong nakikiramdam.
Possible din na ayaw niyo munang mag-seryoso kaya kunwa-kunwarian lang muna.
Testing lang. (tama ba un?!)
Puwede ring hindi puwedeng maging kayo kasi isa sa inyo may ka-relasyon na.
Kaya habang hindi pa siya nakikipag-break doon sa boy/girl (sabi niya
makikipag-break siya soon pero di naman niya ginagawa), wala muna kayong
relasyon para nga naman hindi siya nangangaliwa kasi "hindi naman
kayo."
This pseudo-relationship stage, for a time, can be fun.
Lalo na kung naghahanap ka lang naman ng "KALARO."
Pero huwag ka lang mag-e-expect na may patutunguhan kayo kase wala talagang
kasiguraduhan.
So bakit ang daming nagse-settle sa ganitong set up ganoong hindi naman
sigurado kung may patutunguhan?
Iba’t ibang dahilan.
Puwedeng for fun lang.
Puwedeng "buti na iyan kesa wala" or puwede na iyang
"pantawid-gutom."
Meaning, habang wala pa iyong
the real thing, doon muna sa kunwa-kunwarian.
For those who are not in a serious relationship, they would think that
pseudo-relationship is better than no relationship at all.
It would be fun, if all you’re after is that "kilig" feeling.
But then I learned that although it was only a pseudo-relationship, the
emotions were real.
And usually, in this kind of set up, merong malulugi..
"ung nainlove sa taong taken na.."
Una, you can’t ask him/her to commit.
Since it’s not really a relationship, you can’t demand commitment from
your partner.
Ano ba kayo?
You will always be uncertain about your role in his/her life.
You can’t expect him/her to be always there with you.
And if you feel jealous of the other boys/girls, you just have to keep it to
yourself.
Ano ka ba niya para magselos?
Pangalawa, what if you fall deeply in love with him/her?
You can’t be
sure if he/she feels the same w ay.
Baka nag-a-assume ka lang na mahal ka rin niya.
Even if you are dying to tell him/her you love him/her, you can’t.
Because you’re not sure if he/she will like it.
Baka mapahiya ka lang.
This stage will always make you wonder where you are in the relationship.
Or if there is a relationship at all.
Pangatlo, what if you become attached too much?
What if you have invested all your emotions and this man/woman hasn’t?
What if you remain faithful to him/her, not entertaining other guys/gals, only
to find out that he/she is seeing other girls/boys?
Isa pang downside ng pseudo-relationships, it is fleeting.
When a disagreement sets in, or when one of you gets cold, then that would be
the end of it.
Unlike in a serious relationship, hindi mo alam kung saan ka lulugar sa isang
pseudo-relationship.
Wala kang
pinanghahawakan.
Kasi sa pseudo- relationship,
there is no "us."
Meron lang "you and me."
To let go isn’t to forget, not think about, or ignore. It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn’t winning, and it isn’t losing. It’s not about pride, and it’s not about how you appear, and it’s not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn’t blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt or sadness. It’s not giving in or giving up. Letting go isn’t about loss, and it’s not defeat. To let go is to cherish memories, but to overcome and to move on. It is having an open mind and confidence in the future. Letting go is accepting. It is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry and made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and to set yourself free. Funny when you stop and think, Chorus Its hard to breathe when were apart, Chorus If you love me, look into my eyes and say you do, Chorus —- i hope you can read this…. nothin’…i just feel like im drifting away…i don’t know what to think and even don’t know what to feel…i thought this was it…still i failed…why do things always have to end that way? if i had one wish, i wish i could go back time and change things…i wish i could change things and have not allow myself to feel such so it won’t be like this…it was painful…i’ve done everything but still all was put in vain..i wish all my feeling is gone… never say "I love you" if you really don’t care never talk about feelings if they aren’t really there never hold my hand if your gonna break my heart never say your going to… if you don’t plan to start never look into my eyes if all you do is lie…. never say hi if you really mean goodbye if you really mean forever then say you will try never say forever ‘coz forever makes me cry…. if i can just go back.. back to the time when all i need to worry about is myself.. back to the time when all i need to care for is myself.. back to the time that i dont know what love is, and how to love.. back to the time that when i am hurt and im crying, all they need to give me is a lollipop.. and back to the time when i am innocent about the things around me.. but you came… you made things a lot different for me.. you gave me reason and purpose for all things… you taught me how to care a lot.. you taught me how to worry about people.. you taught me how to love and you let me feel how to be loved… you taught me that happiness is with you.. you taught me how to make promises and making sure that it can be true.. you taught me that evrything can be worthwhile as long as we have each other around.. you taught me not to trust people whole-heartedly.. you taught me that you’re the one i should only trust… but then… you made me realize that happiness does not mean forever.. that when you say i should not trust people, i should not trust you as well.. that when you told me you care for me, you didnt mean it.. that when you made promises, most of them are broken.. that when you tell things, most of them are not true… that when you told me youll be beside me always, youre fingers are crossed…. that when i thought youre a true person, i was talking to hell… i damn hate this life.. when do you say that it is love? when do you say that it is not? do you love a person or you just need them? sometimes we struggle to distinguish between the two. at one point you think you’re in love only to realize that you love the person just because you need him/her. need..in whatever terms. you become too afraid that losing him/her would mean stopping you from getting what you want..its stopping you in getting what you need. but still, they call it love. on the other hand, there are people who love because they really know how to love. loving without just the need, but loving knowing that there is something into it.the feeling of completeness, the feeling of security, and just the unexplainable feeling of loving someone, these might be some of the reasons why loving can have more deeper meaning on it. but then the worst part is, the one who loves is the one whose always hurt. love is very complicated. love is painful. love always hurts. love is unfair. its unfair especially to two people who are not given the chance to express their love for each other. why? because of many unknown reasons. they both love each other but they just can’t be together.its just so damn unfair that you know each other’s feelings but it just cant be. why is that when you love someone he/she don’t love you back? why is that when the one you don’t love is the one who continues to love you? why is that when you have the same feelings you’re not given the chance to love each other? why is love so unfair? is it love that is unfair or the persons involved??? …because they could have entertained love, if they know how to, and if they will give it a chance…
How do you know if you’re just "in love" or if you actually love someone? After the heartbreaks I’ve been through and the infatuation-mistaken-as-love experiences I’ve had, I feel like I need guidelines to actually distinguish the two.. |
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